I'll Take It

Stay safe; may trigger.


If it's a sign of progress to not recognize/remember just how triggering this weekend can be for me (and many others), I'll take it.

The trigger exists for many survivors of ritualized child abuse. I'm experiencing it anew in conjunction with my last post's discussion of really feeling the effects of what occurred in my childhood. (I'm not linking to it, and don't read it if you are not in a safe place.)

It's been a singularly crappy few days -- and it sneaked up on me in a major way. But I've been able to process a lot of the associated fears and feelings, and I'm gulping fresh air, feeling relief even though it's not quite over. There may yet be a great leap forward in my psyche because of these outcomes. I will be rather pissed if that doesn't occur, because no one should have to endure this crap without deriving some kind of useful benefit.